This girl is a runner

I run away from relationships when I'm scared, when I doubt, when things get messy, when I think they aren't good enough, when I think I'm not good enough, when I think I should just be alone. People have no idea how scared I get, for many reasons.

But time and time again, I choose Him.

He doesn't demand my submission, He doesn't demand my commitment. He doesn't demand anything from me.

He tries to love me.

I'm not easy, by far. I'm a strong minded and individually willed girl... my flight or fight response is a hair trigger sometimes.

But He tries to love me through it. And one way doesn't work, and I know He feels it. So He tries another way. And I see His intentions, but I cannot cave just because someone is trying. So He tries another way.

And that's it. That one was the answer. I can't help but buckle at my knees again.

And He has me calm and quiet again, choosing to sit at His feet, my head laying gently and happily against His leg, purring.

Is that not power? I am often and regularly in awe of His power.

Me sitting like that might not sound like much to you, but I know that He knows the significance of that.

I started to explain, but really, He's the only one that needs to know. He's the only one who will truly understand my love, and feel the strength of it that pours only for Him.

I clearly belong to Him.